Girls & Boys

Curious is how I'd describe it.

Girls? Boys? Both?

Boyfriend = love...

Random girls = lust and/or crush

I have a crush on like 58476023 girls now and it is kind of stressing me out because I was pretty sure I was straight like a month ago.

Though, in retrospect, many of my fantasies involved other girls. Huh.

But now I have to go through the lovely event of telling my boyfriend about my insatiable feelings.

I kind of already told him but he is so sweetly stubborn. Argh. I can't even get mad at him because when I tell him about my desire to satiate my curiosity, he is like "Well does it matter if you have me?"

And I am like "AGH I DON'T WANT TO BE CONFUSED FOREVER!"

Meh. mehmehmehmeh.

I don't think he gets it. Or that I don't want to be with anybody else but that I do want to try this so I can have a more concrete understanding.

I don't know what to do. Ultimatum? I REALLY DO NOT want to break up with him or vice versa.

I really don't want to say anything. But I know I'll do it. I will fool around. I KNOW IT.

And I don't want to lie to him. But I know he will try to talk me out of it and he will do it because he is so darn convincing.

jfkdajlgjdli!!!

I always fuck myself over. Without fail.